The Essence Of Who I Am

I wish I could have just wrapped my arms around the 5-year-old you

And told you it was going to be ok

I knew it was always them that lied

I’d scare all the bullies away

I wish I could have told your mom that your brother hit  

So she wouldn’t yell at you

Or that your friends were so horrible to you

They were so horrible to you

Just know I was always by your side 

And I always took your side 

I couldn’t help you defend yourself when you were ganged up on 

I tried my best to comfort you when you cried 

I’m sorry I couldn’t make the time-out corner less lonely 

I couldn’t bring back the things that were taken away from you

I was right there to tuck you in at bedtime 

And I waited patiently for you to close your eyes

Some days I was your favorite book and others I was your stuffed animals 

and sometimes I was just a familiar shadow 

I watched that sadness turn to anger with every birthday candle 

Lash out at little things because to you they were far from little 

Then slowly healing when you realized how hard that was to handle 

Talking through the pain I listened every time 

I was there to reassure you that you had amazing ideas and thoughts

 that you could sell for more than a dime 

Now you have a baby of your own 

He is such an angel inside 

And I promise i’ll always be close to him 

When you can’t always be there through his lifetime

I’ll be his imaginary friend

M.A.P

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