The Essence Of Who I Am

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  • Ballad of a Police Officers Wife

    I’m a police officers wife I never thought this would be my life How did I get a man who would sacrifice Everything for his community How did I get a man who would do Anything for his family I’ve joined the club I am waiting for the door to…

  • The Best Day of My Life

    Today, as I was struggling to put the stoller into the back of my car An older lady walking bySmiling at me, she saidThese are the best years of your lifeAnd it made me smile So many times I hear the opposite The newborn stage is the worstThe toddler stage…

  • The Hardest Goal I set for Myself

    Make it through the year Get out of bed Nurse, my son Dont cry every day Don’t get depressed againWhatever I do, don’t get depressed againDon’t yell Dont hurt yourself Again and again Dont wake up and go to bed angry Be thankful Just make it through the day Be…

  • I don’t see myself as a mother

    I’m finding myself again Like climbing out of a World War 2 bunker I thought the world was ending But it was just the end of the musical number Taking myself out on coffee dates Reminising all of the different years One after another I dont even see myself now…

  • Papa

    You will never be forgotten Your love for murder mysteries and your garden You had a beautiful life that bloomed into your children, and now your children’s children And I think you left a little early to help handpick some of your future great-grandchildren You introduced me to one of…

  • I might never speak again

    Tell us about a time when you felt out of place. Right now All the time I’m too deep Don’t want to see the world I want to cut it open and crawl inside I sit cross legged like I’m meditating A book balancing on my head like a peaceful…

  • Grief is the heartbroken widow

    I’ve learned after depression That you have to fight for life So hard it’s like a battle ground One you have flashbacks of war all the time You remember how bad it was and never want to go back But you miss it in a way A good way You…

  • Unconventional Therapy

    I went to the grocery store today As unconventional therapy I wish I had realized sooner that I needed to also take care of me Or I would lose all my sanity Silvia plath was only really famous for killing her family So I take myself on dates and buy…

  • Flowers crawling out of my mouth

    The world feels so heavy I wake up in my nightmare again Under the bed The fear still manages to creep in I close my eyes and imagine the end All of a sudden I’m falling and falling Until I feel dirt against my bare skin Suffocation feels soothing as…

  • Sticky

    My life feels sticky like licking honey off of a spoon M.A.P ©️ 2023