The Essence Of Who I Am

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  • T.V

    I’m so lonely  I thought I would have someone  Something  Everyone on tv has friends  I watch friends for company A community  But that’s just tv  I’m watching  While my old friends are friends with each other now Going to the concerts I would have died to see  The irony  That…

  • Company

    Everything has a thick layer of sadness on it tonight Like butter on a piece of burnt toast I am not sure if it’s just because it is 8:30pm Or because the 4 bedroom house is quiet Besides the TV playing in the background It’s pretty lousy company I still…

  • Leave Us Alone

    Leave us alone You’ve done enough Dont hold it over our heads I thought it was a gift, not a fee Jealousy is your only color And believe me, it’s not pretty We have lives even if you aren’t happy about that Your lies are unforgiving One day you’ll look…

  • With Women Not the System

    I’m with women, not the system Because I am the woman And I was destroyed by the system They lied to me Bullied me Took my baby from me Left me with so much trauma I wasn’t even me I’m with women, not the system Because of every single woman…

  • Distracted

    My fate lies in an envelope  The government holds my body like strings to a puppet  I want to scream at the system but I’ve been drugged to just shut up  Distracted by dollar bills  They threw me a life raft and then drove off I have to swim to…

  • Silence

    I want to write about silence The things people never say  The most beautiful thoughts that get left out in the rain  The ones that represent snowflakes  The I love you’s that you regret not saying The I’m sorry’s that would have repaired the broken fences Of the day to…

  • imaginary Friend

    I wish I could have just wrapped my arms around the 5-year-old you And told you it was going to be ok I knew it was always them that lied I’d scare all the bullies away I wish I could have told your mom that your brother hit   So…

  • Cigerette

    His body unraveled like a blanket over me  And his heavy breath blew my hair His deep voice was intoxication  I wanted to inhale him  Roll him into a cigarette and smoke him  Choke him out and bleed him And in the same way I knew he most likely would…

  • Blind

    When I was younger I would pretend I was blind I would go outside and close my eyes I would feel the breeze on my face and hang the clothes On the line I would feel the rubbery wire  With my fingers The wet clothes felt so cool And I…

  • Friend

    And honestly, I think that most of this searching through life has just been for a friend M.A.P ©