The Essence Of Who I Am

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  • My brain fights like oil and water

    My parents mixed like oil and water You don’t believe me Us kids were the only thing holding them together after the divorce And just barely My brain fights with my heart Half of myself disagrees with the other half I got both worse halves of them I can never…

  • What Dryer setting will tumble dry the pain away

    The fall wind carries away my summer trauma The crisp burnt leaves tumble dry the pain away M.A.P ©2023

  • I went through a magic portal

    I love people-watching at coffee shops I am invisible to everyone around me The couples with their heads so close whispering secrets so close like they aren’t sitting across a table Is it a first date, an affair, or just friends with some hypocrisy Girls talking about their singing careers…

  • I have this raw energy

    I have this raw energy That is elevated with your body I touch you after you touch me Looking into your eyes I’m lost at sea I’m not naked I’m just free M.A.P ©2023

  • Christmas is a cover up

    I listened to the radio too loud on the way home It quieted down the thoughts in my head Is that why I like the holidays so much It hides all the normal feelings I usually dread M.A.P ©2023

  • Christmas is having an affair with nastaliga

    The rain brings back all the unresolved lovers The joys I never had The boys that I never told how I felt How the cold brought the bad to worse to sad The snow dances The red cheeks The black dresses I know he wanted to kiss me The warmth…

  • You can’t live normally

    You can’t live life normally without christianity It’s like owning a bed and sleeping on the floor next to it It’s like drinking water out of a cup with a hole in it It doesn’t make sense You were made to worship so you yearn for something that Is worth…

  • I’M ANGRY AT THE WORLD

    I’m angry at the world I’m angry at my momI’m angry at my life I’m angry at God I hold it all inside meLike glass that shattered years agoI need to throw it outBut now i’m so attached to it It’s grown over my skinThe pain is a friendly reminder…

  • I think I’m very angry

    I think I’m very angry I look around and all I see is enemy after enemy I am an animal in a cave Someone is trying to hurt my baby Put all my guards up My claws are ready for anything Loosen up I am so tense thinking about reality…

  • Rain Puddle

    Happiness finds me again Like a child jumping into a rain puddle M.A.P ©2023